Disconnected from Him
Looking back, I can't believe that I envied them. I didn't even know them, but judged them solely on their appearance. They looked in love. Connected. In sync. Undeniable chemistry. They appeared to have everything that I wanted with my man at the time.
I'm embarrassed to admit, but I'm talking about a leader and a follower that I saw dancing Zouk in a YouTube video. Type "hottest zouk dance ever" on Youtube, and you"ll find the video with over 3 million views.
The minute I saw this video, I wanted to be them. There was only one problem. I needed my man to dance with. What I didn't realize at the time was that I was searching for something more than a dance. I was craving an intimate connection with my man. For some reason, I felt disconnected in my relationship and thought that dance would cure us. Let's just say, we weren't on the same page.
When I showed him the video and expressed my desire to dance like that, he wasn't as enthusiastic. I took his reaction as complete rejection and never brought up dancing like them again.
After we broke up years later, the universe brought me to the arms of social dance where I found the connection I was looking for. This time, it was with myself. When I took my first Salsa class, I was without a partner. Now I know that I was out of alignment. I needed to connect with me before I could connect to another person. So even though dance didn't mend my relationship, it healed me....
- Lider x Falouer